WHEN I WAS FAT

Aware that some of my youtube subscribers struggle or have struggled with been overweight, I decided to share some personal stuff from my past. Inspired by them I decided to put those paragraphs in order to get them knowing me better. With that being said, I would like to firstly give you my opinion on the whole obesity/ being fat subject.

Based on everything I know including personal experience and observations on others, I believe there are two types of overweight individuals. A bigger and smaller group. To the first one belong up to 80% and to the second around 20%.

No matter of the kind nor the number of advices given to them, the people from the second group won’t take them. Despite of how hard you try to help, they will not listen to you and they will keep doing what they do. Even when aware of the truth about their health issues, those people will stick to the things that made them and keep them fat. With the risk of being rude, I believe they are the ones entirely responsible for their suffering and trust me, there is virtually no way of helping them until they change from the inside.

But what about the others? What about the majority of the people who have or ever had to deal with that problem? Well, if you do not consider yourself as a part of that second group, you might want continue reading.

I truly believe it is not your fault. You got into that situation, not because of you, but because of the things you’ve been told. Ever since you were born, you have been recommended that in order to keep yourself thin and not gain weight, you should stick to a diet rich in whole grains like wheats, pastas and breads. You were also told that becoming a vegan or vegetarian would be even better option. You were advised to eat many meals during the day, because fasting would slow your metabolism. To eat less and move more and to do more cardio.

I am pointing all of them, because for years I was told the exact same stuff. Yes, I use to believe to all of it and for the period of me being 16 to 19 years old I was even a vegetarian. In fact I was interested of becoming a vegan. Even though I had a little bit of dairy and egg containing products here and there, my diet was already almost vegan. During the same period I was involved in some enormous cardiovascular activity at least five times per week. That was based on two to three mile long walks.

I’m not going to get into details as long as for the actual foods I was eating, because this is not the purpose of the post. The main reason is because I wanted to let you know that I know exactly how you feel. I know how it feels when people look down on you, because of the way you look. I know what’s in your heart when the others say, you don’t do enough and you should try harder. I know how it feels, when they say, you’re lazy and etc. Trust me I am no stranger to all of them. Matter of fact I am familiar with some way more painful and not so constructive criticism. That is what I am about to share.

Let’s clear that I was never three hundred pounder. In fact I was not even close, but I was extremely chubby, puffy and bloated. I was well equipped with decent pair of remarkably visible mail boobs and I had tons of excessive, inflamed flesh all over my body. Under my boobies there was not a muffin top, but a horrible fat belly and the shape of my face often reminded me the one of a soccer ball.

Because as a teenager I was heavy into dating, during those years, I had multiple intimate partners. Even though they did not know each other, they had something in very common. Every time after having sex with me, most of those girls had the same practice of informing me how bad my body actually looked. It was almost like a ritual.

They were giving me all kinds of negative comments about my boobies, excessive amounts of meat and my puffy face. They were taking their time to carefully explain me that I was really not their type and they were f*****g me only, because they had nothing else to do. Either if it was about the particular moment or just in general. But I believe those were not the most important things.

The thing they really wanted to make me understand was the fact that their other sex partners, ex boyfriends, their sisters’ and friends’ boyfriends or partners were looking so much better than me and my appearance not only massively sucked, but more importantly was nowhere near close to the ones of those people.

If you’ve read or listened the Bulletproof diet, then you’re familiar with Dave Asprey’s experience with the calorie reducing diets. His fear of gaining the weight back and the horror of his “fat pants” that waited for him in his closet. Well, I can ensure you that the comments those ladies were giving me were 100 times more terrifying than any pair of “fat pants” you can imagine. In fact back then I was rocking mostly multiple XL clothes, because I desperately wanted to cover my body in order to hide my flesh and boobies but after and during sex that was not possible.

It happened that the early 2000’s street fashion and in particular oversized jeans and white tees were making me feel more secure. So being involved in that type of culture gave me really good excuse for wearing them.

Nowadays I still adore rocking oversized pieces, but those are mostly stringers that uncover my shoulders chest and even lower back.

I hope that makes sense.

Yours truly:
Peteonthebeat